Posted 02 April 2008 - 06:15 AM
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Posted 02 April 2008 - 06:19 AM
Darling Liz, I hope that you have the strenght to get through the next couple of days, and know that we are all here for you.
Posted 02 April 2008 - 06:38 AM
I am thinking of you and will call you again later today to see how you are going.
Posted 02 April 2008 - 06:45 AM
RIP Tully - rainbow bridge has another angel. Hugs to you Liz.
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Posted 02 April 2008 - 06:59 AM
Rest in peace little Tully.
Posted 02 April 2008 - 07:04 AM
Posted 02 April 2008 - 07:11 AM
Last night while I was in the bathroom little miss got into the rubbish bag that was on the ground. I thought it was a new bag with just papers and things and had thought Steve had taken the old bag to work (we dont have rubbish collection) Steve thought it was just a bag full of newspapers etc and hadnt taken it. It turns out it was a fairly old bag which I had thrown out some old philly cheese and so by the time little miss found it it was not nice to say the least. I found her rummaging around in the bag and called her off and moved the bag away. 30mins later she started to shake, only lightly and I assumed that she was cold because Joey was doing his cold shakes.
10mins later she was shaking violently.
10mins after that she had her first seziure.
I had called every single vet in the area we decided to take her straight away to the Emergency Centre about 50mins away because even though the Woodford vet said he would come in he knows *^%$ all about anything and he said he would probably just send us there anyway.
We had virtually no fuel in the car so we had to go the very long way to get there and by the time we got to the servo she had had 3 more fits and she was burning up. That was 20mins from home.
After filling up I will not say what speeds Steve was doing but if we had been pulled over we had a *^%$ing good excuse.
There was then road works happening and half of the trip ended up being cut to 40km/hr which was freaking me out.
By the time we got to the vets at about 1am she had had another 9 fits and her temperature was up even higher.
They rushed her in and sedated her to stop the fits but I could hear her screaming as they put the needles in and hooked her up to the machines.
The vet came in to talk to us and we had already been saying no matter how much it costs she has to be fixed she has to get better. I had been worried though after the first fit about her having brain damage. The vet came in to explain the costs and what she was going to do. $1500 to pump her stomach and then she would need to stay in about 3 days and we would be looking at no less than $2500. I was cancelling the wedding there and then. Actually it was more money than we even have in savings for the wedding so I didnt know how but we would have had to find the extra money.
I called my mum about that time because I was hopeing she could help with the extra money but at the same time i was freaking out because we were cancelling the wedding and I was just a complete mess. I had the vet run through everything again while mum was on the phone listening and the same thing came into her head.
We did not know that she would not have brain damage. She is still incredibly small for her age and still not developing properly and the vet was also concerned that she would have kidney failure as well.
After an hour I had decided what needed to be done. I signed the form and held my baby girl why she was put to sleep.
That was the hardest decision of my life. Yes I loved my baby girl more than anything and she was the baby I may never have but I had to think about what her quality of life may have been and what the procedures would have done to her.
I wish I could stop the uncontrollable crying because I have no energy left. I miss her so so so very much and I blame myself for all of this.
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Posted 02 April 2008 - 07:17 AM
My heart really is aching for you.
Please please take care and allow your self to grieve for the loss of your baby girl.
Posted 02 April 2008 - 07:20 AM
You did the right thing for her sweetie. You know that.
It's f*&(ing hard to lose a pet though. They become such a huge part of the family.
Hugs to you, hon. You know how to contact me if you need me.
Posted 02 April 2008 - 07:22 AM
It really was the best thing for Tully, I had to make the same decision for my pup Bowie this time last year when he suffered kidney failure and it is terrifying to feel that if it is the right decision, why does it feel so wrong and so bad? You don't know how much more suffering she may have been put through if you had chosen to keep her alive... sounds like it would have been a lot more as she was a fragile little girl.
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Posted 02 April 2008 - 07:50 AM
I've lost two dogs this year & my heart just breaks for you.
Please don't blame yourself, you did the best thing for her.
Big hugs to you.
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