Well I really need to get this off my chest, so if you don't want to listen to rambling stop reading now. LOL
My DF and I have been engaged for 8 and 1/2 years and I have been planning our wedding for at least 5 years, in between having children (we are now onto our 7th one) so it is a massive deal to me and he knows that.
His idea of a wedding is to get married at the registry office (or wherever you do it) and getting a wedding band each and that is it, I thought that he was just being a typical male not interested because it is so far away but obviously I am wrong. He thinks that it is just too much money to spend, a waste as he puts it. I also thought it was because he doesn't like being in crowds, hates going to shopping centres etc. But I asked him tonight as I just don't want to keep organising things if he really doesn't want to get married and he said that it is just a waste of money and we could use it for better things, but why then did he bother to ask me to marry him?
Our wedding budget is $12000 so not a massive amount compared to some but it is still a lot, I know. I have already put on lay-by my dress and I have so many things in the pipeline to book so now I am wondering what to do. I have wanted to get married to him for so long, even going so far as thinking about just having a ceremony and maybe a cake and leaving it at that, but I know that deep down I will regret not doing it properly, I just wanted to have my special day, and I think that after 7 children (well it will be by the time we are due to get married) I deserve something for me.
Anyway, I do understand where he is coming from but my main issue is why did we bother to get engaged if he never planned on marrying me?
Thanks for reading if you got through it all, and I am sorry if I made no sense I am just a little bit upset about it right now.