i hate imagining all those people seeing me in a WHITE dress looking at me and judging me and calling me fat thinking i look horrible. ever since the engagement i just gain weight because im depressed. im not scared of the marriage not so scared of any of it other than this.. people keep telling me to lose weight whenever they see me. i try my dress on and just think yuck.. i havent weighed in over a year im just a size 14-16 i know its not alot but people will judge me.. i always dreamed of beeing the most beautiful woman on my wedding day. this is the whole reason i didnt want to get married so soon i wanted to wait until i was thin but thats never going to happen..
4 months to go and i have new stretch marks..
just posting in here because you girls give me hope and make me proud of who i am and how i look just by seeing your pics.
p.s h2b couldnt care less what i look like!